I got my new student ID which I named ScrappyII. For any of you who saw my ID from undergrad, I looked homeless so my roommate Giti named it Scrappy. Turns out, 6 years later, I still look pretty 'scrappy'. But it was a good laugh.
The campus of my new school is very urban, which is much, much different than CU. It is in Center City and spread out over about 5 city blocks. This means every Thursday I get to spend some time downtown.
Having not ever really spent much time in big cities as an inhabitant, I am still sensitive to all of those good, and not so good things that come along with urban living. For instance, on my way out of the train station this afternoon I saw a couple, obviously drunk and homeless, with a little baby, in just a diaper and a shirt (It's still cold here), screaming its head off. I wanted to steal the baby from them and take it home. The situation made me feel really sad, mad and helpless all at the same time. It even choked me up a bit. Then I passed several homeless people on my way to the building where my class was. I have the hardest time with these things. I think to myself, maybe if they just had better parents? Or a better education? Or somebody to give them a hug every day and tell them "I love you and you are worth something, please don't make that bad choice"? Is this where that little innocent baby is going to end up? On the streets of Philly, just like his parents?
And then there are the 4 high school kids who skipped school and picked a random guy to beat up. In the middle of the day. The guy ended up dying. And this was in the "good" part of town. And all I can think about is Colin, in the "bad" part of town.
But, then I walk past all of the good places to eat, the tea bar by my school, the spectacular architecture and remind myself it isn't all bad. Maybe the more time I spend down there the easier it will be for me. After all, how fun will it be to explore the neighborhood and have weekly dates after class with Colin?! I wonder if I will get to the point where the murder and the homeless blend with the asphalt and buildings and become unnoticed characteristics of my surroundings. I doubt it. I think it will always bother me. And I guess that is alright.
On the train ride home Colin told me I looked like a 'city girl'.
I definitely don't feel like one.


